Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Intimidation and Knowledge of the Truth

I'm sitting in Charlotte about to board the first plane of many in this trip.
I am more excited about this trip than any other trip I've taken, but also more intimidated. I'm encouraged by how the Lord has led me up to this point and worked everything from finances to contacts and visas out so smoothly. I'm excited that I might find an internship and be able to be mentored by someone who loves the Lord and loves the people of Bangladesh. I'm excited about the contacts and friends I'll make while I'm over there that may lead to future work and ministry together. At the same time, these of things that I'm so excited about also mean leaving everything I've ever known and loved and been comfortable around. That is a little intimidating.
On the other end of the spectrum, looming like the IRS is failure. What if I hate Asia and never want to go back? Or even if I like it, what if I can't find some sort of internship?
Fears like these could cripple me if I entertained them and worried about them. To fight these unhealthy fears I have to remind myself of whats true. I know that I didn't come up with the idea of traveling to Asia to do Business as Missions. God has put it in my heart because of some plan He is working. He is guiding and directing me and I know that this is the next step I'm supposed to take. I don't know what comes after this month; I have some ideas, but I dont know. I don't need to know. Sometimes He takes our path up high where we can see way out in front of us, and sometimes we can only see the next step. I'm ok with that. I know that He has good in mind for me and that as I seek Him, He won't lead me down the wrong path. So yes, I'm aware of the fears and possibilities; I'm a business-minded guy I'm supposed to look at all the angles and possible outcomes. After looking at them, I'm plowing ahead knowing that He is the one in charge.

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